Dear past and future puppy owners,
I loved them first. I thought of you years before you even realized. I planned for and cared about your baby long before you started thinking of adding to your family. I worried about your future with that puppy before you knew there would be one.
There were hours upon hours spent researching lines for the parents of your puppy, going over breeder after breeder, choosing not only my pet but looking for a dog that would make you your pet. I worried if you'd be happy, if I'd chosen correctly and your puppy would grow up healthy and happy. I have gone over puppy after puppy with fellow breeders, running over my program with as many knowledgeable breeders as I can, determined not to miss anything. I learned the ins and outs, not only for my knowledge so that I was informed and prepared to go over every detail with you, but to answer questions that sometimes you don't even ask.
Then there's years of watching your puppy's parents grow. I love them and enjoy watching them as a part of my family, training them, socializing them, watching how they fill out and asking myself if I had made the right choice in both of them. Scrutinizing their confirmation, how they move, and their temperament, I prayed not only that my babies were healthy but that they had genes to make your baby healthy.
Finally came the time to put your puppy's parents together. For the next 63 days I worried, I obsessed, I grew excited! I watched your puppy's mom like a hawk, making sure my baby was okay, monitoring her diet better than I do my own. Concerned that she was getting enough of the right nutrients and that your growing baby was getting the best start possible. I spent hours with her watching her tummy grow and anxiously waiting. As your baby and mine grew, I laid my hands on her tummy and felt the first movements of your puppy. As the time grew close, I spent lots of times at night in the nursery with her, making sure she didn't go into labor without me knowing, in case something went wrong and one of our babies needed help.
When labor started, my whole life stopped. Your baby was born into my hands and I held my breath as I cleaned them up, watching for movement and breathing, checking them over and wondering if you'd love them as much as I already did. I helped your baby's brother when mom got tired and he was stuck. I cried when your baby's sister didn't make it.
For the first 8 weeks, most of my life was filled with your baby, watching them grow and making sure I was doing everything possible to make sure they started their lives the right way. It was my responsibility to make sure each one was getting enough to eat, enough socialization time, that they were dewormed and given their vaccinations. I was the first person they saw when they opened their eyes, the first human voice they heard. I spent weeks playing with them and keeping them safe.
I searched for you and asked you many questions. As we spoke I tried to read your character. Would you love them as much as I do? Would you bring them in as part of your family? Would you care for this tiny life that I brought into this world that I am responsible for? Some of you were turned away but some of you were welcomed into our family. The day you took your baby home was harder than I'd ever let on. I was excited for you but I was also terrified. Had I chosen correctly? Were you who you seemed to be?
My love and worry didn't end there. I thought about your baby regularly, saddened when I didn't get updates, ecstatic when I did. I hoped you were caring for your baby the way I care for mine. I answered your questions happily and answered them again just as happily for your baby's siblings' new parents.
When your puppy's sister ate something she shouldn't have, I stayed up that night she was at the vets, waiting to hear she was okay. When the brother's parents decided he no longer fit in their life, I welcomed him home, sorry that I had chosen wrong for him and promised him it wouldn't happen again.
I loved your baby first and I will never stop.
Written by Heather Andelin - California Danes